will i still be alright
as i stand alone gazing into the night
when will i win this fight
gain the strength and might
to shine bright
why is everything dark
why do you make it sound easy
why does everyone tell me it will past
what am i suppose to wait for
for a future that i dont see future in
do you understand how i feel
how this dark engulfs me
it repels light
its like happiness surounds me
but im unable to feel it
im unable to touch it
i see the brightness
you shining in into me - it blinds me
my hands are up - i can't wait to embrace the warmth
but the closer i get
the more it burns me
reminding me that i'm not worthy of light
do you understand how cold it is here
take it easy - it will come to you
how can you make it sound so easy
tell me i've done enough
tell me i've tried hard
but i know - as my breath stiffens
in this chilling world
how would you even know
i could have been better
who am i without this light
i will be alright
just like how i am tonight
except
alright just meant i cried
alright just meant i sighed
as usual
alright is just so you feel right
just so you dont feel the need to comfort me anymore
just so i dont burden anyone anymore
with me feeling nothing close to alright
tell me again
if there is a god in this world
do you feel lonely too
do you feel me
as you watch us - what goes on in your mind
is it better to not feel
or feel so much that it doesnt feel like anything anymore
is it better to find peace
or be at peace with what i am now
is it better to be an empty soul
or be so overwhelmed with sorrows it kills
once again
who am i without this light
the only hope and sight
to keep me from falling from this height
the faint hint of hope that it will guide
me to somewhere where i'll be happy
somewhere.
where i can finally exist with the light.
