hush crush flush

hush little baby we don’t cry

we’ll crush them with every night

I’ll make you flush every bit of feelings down, 

one four six that’s right

now hush before the bag’s open up wide

and crushed that’s the fate of the cat, quick hide

you let it out and I’ll make sure I flush every bit of your throat down,

till your dead mama saves the night

now you know hush your sorrows shut

nobody cares they’ll only crush

they’ll treat you like shit, they’ll only flush, 

watch it swirl fast like art

hush baby those muffled cries

before I crush your bloody eyes

go to your bowl like you always do 

and flush down all of your stupid whys 

last warning I said hush all your witless whines

nothing is gonna be fine

are you crushed with this truth baby?

well don’t be, cause soon you’ll be flushed down with the time

self love;

i never knew learning to self love was something valid;

was i allowed to put down my responsibilities, just so i could find myself?

I’ve always thought: we’re all struggling in this, we are all drowning. 

One day, surely, the water will subside and I’ll be able to breathe.

It’s just a phase, it’s just the tides.

But no, you don’t wait for the water to be calm, you learn to paddle in the water. Self love is something we all have to learn, to survive.

I’ve been putting it off for the longest time; not sure if it was because I didn’t know how to go about it, or I just didn’t like the loneliness I felt while learning to swim in this big, big ocean.

As of now, I’m barely staying afloat. One more wave and I’ll be swept off.

I want to help the people around me, I want to bring them to the shore. I want to love people; but how can I do that when I can’t even save myself?

Self love is essential, self love is important. I’ll learn to fight this tide and I’ll be back for you all. 

Give me time will you? This is for me and all of you. 

Let’s learn together, we’ll eventually get there. I’ll see you all then.

thank you;

i'm beyond grateful
for you who makes my heart full

thank you
for loving me

i'll be back soon

human

'don't i look ugly when i cry?'
i looked up, sobbing

he looked at me, and fondled with my hair lovingly
'no, you look human'

'it's the most human i've ever seen of you'