i pray you find this one day
that you were searching up my name like i do for you
that you were wondering how i am
that you slept thinking about our what ifs
and that you dreamt the same heart wrenching scene
we were 18 when i called it off
this would keep me insane for the next 7 years
and going
leaving you then is my biggest regret
i searched high and low for your replicate,
but nobody could replace your presence
i miss you
yet i know i don’t deserve you
you are never coming back,
and i religiously pray everyday to see you again
you said you forgave me,
then could we start over again?
i wish you find this letter
and know how much i really want you back
7 times i wished you happy birthday in silence
on the first sunshine in june
7 times i celebrated our anniversary in sadness
on the 18th of january
and many more times to come, i wish you could stop this
if i could turn back time
i will go back to that day and show myself
how much that terrible decision will cost
