the lights, they are blurry yet bright
can i return to where i was
where i didn’t need to hide
will i ever return
or will i yearn the same down the road
truth is, i am angry
the world gave me so much
yet greed engulfs me
what happens when we lose joy?
wishing becomes pointless,
laughter becomes sinister
through my lens, i judge the world
silence becomes normal
blankly looking into the horizon;
all we see is dullness
just one more day,
that’s what we always say
time passes and becomes everyday
when i leave, know that i am always grateful
why didn’t i show when i lived?
i don’t know
me at 21 was still struggling
the world seemed smaller
she looked bigger
stronger, they say
but really, her walls just moved closer
she no longer anticipated
she no longer explored
just when others are living their best
she withered
her youth just started and it was over
“things will be better”
i can’t wait for all these to be over.
