am

the past few days
she ruminates
why can't you just
reciprocate

but it dawned on her
the real question was
why can't she just
let go of the hate

give yourself a break
why would you go high
for someone who won't
ever do the same

she lets go a tad more today

a painting

under the moon we sat

feets dangling off the ledge

hands gently on the rock 

hearts deeply interlocked

peaceful large waves crashed afar

with wind humming under the star

a soft hymn of adoration

to such ethereal creation 

embraced in milky way

warmth swept them off the bay

lost in your twinkling gaze

a voluntary maze

when tonights' blue end at midnight

calamity shall come to strike

for one of them made a pact 

to exchange time with the wreck

those eyes glisten in the rain

now they stay in memory lane

mine stares out of the windowpane

searching for a glimpse of your frame

scoundrel

how can someone
smile so innocently, speak so beautifully
say he'll bend all lights for me
yet repeat the same words
to everybody

how can someone
say i'm everything,
lie that he'll come to me
these words he says without
once batting his eyelids

how can someone
act so pitifully
that i can't let him go
when all i can feel is
indignance, depression
your proud exhibition

how can someone
sleep peacefully at night,
wake up like its all fine
but the night before said
i love you goodnight to
two girls at the same time

how can someone
romanticize fully,
cry the tears from the stars
don't you know that the moon
they are scowling at you
watching how a scoundrel
speaks his way to my heart

yet, how could i
fall so dumbly for you
when i knew you're trouble
when i deserve better

how could i
joined as your accomplice,
made myself a tribute
to hover round your land
just so i get some peace

your land was never dark
all you did was trick us
you made me think it's grey
'you are my colored ray'
both of us heard you say

1200

how do i feel emptier
sadder, worthless, lost and broke
than before i saw your eyes

you keep pulling on my leash
tell me you love me, miss me
effortless words take no time

ever thought, how does it feel
to wait for someone all night
to jump with joy at your text

those same words i say to you
miss you, love you, i mean it
yet yours sound cold, predicted

my feet are dangling in air
could you at least give me space
my last straw of dignity

won't you do me a favor
kill me quick and clean, bare-hand
you lured me so you'll end me

after a long night i'll say
stay, just for one more midnight
but every night is long

i didnt give any fucks
i used to be confident
now im begging, what happened

all the boys must be laughing
what a karma you lil' bitch
what goes around comes around