reckless

it came true,
it happened.

i feel weird, like i've just committed a sin.
it was sweet,
i was loved.

but it felt reckless,
and foolish.

what if i regret?
or am i already regretting?

what if it's me this time,
who runs away irresponsibly?

what if, i become the demons i hated so much?
right now, i fear, for im starting to understand the devils' heart.

dilemma;

it's a new year, 2017, and here comes more decisions. To give up, or not? 

Weighing the pros and cons, it all comes down to the same conclusion. To follow the heart, or the mind?

What's really making want to quit? I ask myself earnestly. And it seems like the only answer is fear. 

Fear; is actually what's encouraging me. I'm afraid of the stress, afraid of getting scolded, afraid of being a burden, afraid that it would be my excuse to not do.

Then what's keeping me in there? My passion? Or is it just my pride? I'm not sure, really.

When life gets tough,

don't you wish you didn't have that many choices?

But let's smile,

let's be thankful.

Trust yourself,

for most likely you have made up your mind,

but is just too afraid to execute it.

Don't fear.

You may regret, 

but even if you do, 

always remember that you tried your best.

You thought through it, 

and sometimes, it's just meant to be that way.

Always remember, that no matter what happens,

you are here for yourself.

You will persevere,

and make the best out of your choice.

It's tiring, but one day, you'll be thankful for yourself.

Let's just try it, shall we?

Listen to our heart, follow our passion.

Warning, it will be tough.

Really tough, actually.

But we'll do it.

Everyday, let's make it a point to smile,

We'll cry in the shower,

and the next day would be a brand new day.

If it gets too tough, 

try not to regret.

Try your best,

to survive.