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Friday, 13 September 2024

To You, At 25

To You, At 25

Isn’t she flourishing 
living the dreams she once carried,
chasing what once felt so distant,
seeking her place, her constant?

Wherever she may be,
she has persevered with grace,
gone to great lengths,
weathering her storms on the open sea.

Life at mid twenty—  
so far away, yet so near.  
suspended between the echoes of youth  
and the promises of future you  
We are finding our footing,  
empowered by each other's rooting

Will we eventually find it?

Almost half our lives, together.  
The first five were seamless, entwined like the ticking of a clock.  
We saw each other in every heartbeat, our trust as solid as rock
The next five years, we scattered into our dreams,  
busy, yes, but we fought to stay as a team  
And though I wished for more,  
I am grateful we nurtured this bond and soared

In the future five,  
we will be adults,  
living the lives we once only dreamt.  
I hope, wherever you are,  
we are still together—in spirit, in laughter, in tears.  
Don’t you agree?  
Friendship takes tending,  
but we both know it’s worth defending.

Ten years have passed since the start,  
and five more before we reach thirty
But in the grand stretch of time,  
we have so many more years to create,  
so many more chapters to write.

A little wiser, more mature,  
discussing life instead of homework.  
Yet, even now, we still look back,  
the laughter, the dreams,  
hopefully, we never lose our beam.


Here’s to another ten, and beyond.  
To us, always.  

Wednesday, 7 August 2024

25

she who just started living

yet a bulk of memories and regret trails

she who barely learned to breathe

yet now breathless from adulthood’s grills


she who just managed to wriggle her fingers

yet now losing everything through her grip

she who sighs at her trickling past

or maybe from the future’s anxious trip


but may she remember

while time may rust iron

 time will also make diamond


after all how would you know high

if you’ve never experienced low?

she can only flourish from here,

and she definitely will, as we know.


she, so genuine, loyal, and beautiful

may she be always happy and at peace

happy 25, where your story truly starts

may your joy and wisdom never cease

Wednesday, 21 February 2024

my first june

i pray you find this one day

that you were searching up my name like i do for you

that you were wondering how i am

that you slept thinking about our what ifs

and that you dreamt the same heart wrenching scene 


we were 18 when i called it off 

this would keep me insane for the next 7 years

and going 

leaving you then is my biggest regret 

i searched high and low for your replicate,

but nobody could replace your presence 

i miss you

yet i know i don’t deserve you 

you are never coming back, 

and i religiously pray everyday to see you again


you said you forgave me,

then could we start over again?

i wish you find this letter 

and know how much i really want you back

7 times i wished you happy birthday in silence 

on the first sunshine in june 

7 times i celebrated our anniversary in sadness

on the 18th of january 

and many more times to come, i wish you could stop this


if i could turn back time 

i will go back to that day and show myself

how much that terrible decision will cost 

Monday, 18 September 2023

away with the dove

for who comes next 
will always be 
in your shadows
just another he

in his eyes i source your glow
in his touch i seek your warmth
if you returned would i go?
i might actually opt for the fourth

they say people seek similarity
but you defined familiarity
though i am starting to think
maybe we weren’t that much of a thing

how could i ever forget 
you were my first upset
farewell what i knew as love
our memories shall fly with the dove

i promise to treat him 
the way you did for me
for he brings a brand new gleam
somewhere im thankful to be

Friday, 25 August 2023

Super Far

first wrote me a letter
second cooked me a meal
third made me a hater

what about you?

so innocent and pure
told me you’re my cure
those eyes that lure
said we are for sure

but is it my past
making me ask
how true are you
or is all just a mask

your charm so endearing
mesmerising those peering
yet you never once reject
all the leering and nearing 

how i wish you knew
how uncertain i feel
how i might lose you
to anyone new

the claims of effort 
hidden unseen bare minimum
if this is love 
i don’t want it

Sunday, 30 April 2023

曾愿

像风 随它流浪  如云 洒脱飘扬

水珠 雪白浪花 光火 点亮幻想

那里

天地 忧伤封藏 山崩 闪崩自由 

初见 满怀激情 投影 相遇相爱  

可惜

你我 世间过往 光年 漫长夜晚

鱼儿 眼前忧伤 森林 冷漠哀叹

在这

石子 便是我命 原地 硬邦坐下

回响 已含遗憾  翅膀 幻想繁华

最终

像风 孤独流浪  如云 飘入尘埃

水珠 哗啦丧气 光火 凶猛破坏

这里

天地 忧伤满面 山崩 闪崩倒塌 

初见 命运捉弄 投影 星球泪滴

只愿

我们的相遇 停留在梦里

远离了悲伤 任由我回想

万年落花 万物苏醒

天地雷鸣 天意迎接

降临眼帘 竟如初梦

是你

何时遇见 何方相逢

心怡心念 心已累垮 


 







Monday, 27 February 2023

our summer story

and if they ask me 

what’s keeping you up at night?

i’ll have no names to spill

what’s making you ponder in silence?

i’ll have no thoughts to share

what’s making you feel?

i’ll have no sorrows to pour

what’s keeping you going through the day?

i’ll have no vision to say


but i’ll watch the sun set

oh goes one more day

where the times we once shared

stays as memories i have